I CAN'T DO THIS ANYMORE

Dear Heart,

I can't do this shit anymore...i am tired of people.fake ass people especially. Tired of liars, manipulators, and random falsehoods people like to induce. I AM TIRED OF ALL THIS BULLSHIT...

I AM GONNA STAY TO MYSELF LOCKED UP AND I WON'T COME OUT AFTER THIS WEEKEND I AM DONE WITH PEOPLE. IF YOU WANNA SEE OR HERE FROM ME HIT ME UP OR STOP BY...I JUST CAN'T DO THIS SHIT ANYMORE...

THE PAST WEEKEND I HAVE LEARNED SO MUCH ABOUT PEOPLE...JUST BY WATCHING. NIGGAS WOULD BE LUCKY IF I SHOWED UP TO THIS SHIT HOLE NEXT YEAR. ITS TIME FOR SOMETHING NEW IM GETTING BORED...



LOVE SOMETIMESHATE,

THE MIND

The Thin Line Between FRIEND and MEN

Dear Heart,

There is a thin line between Friends and Men...

"Neva bring ya man around a friend...it can all change for the worse(for you)"

so he likes my friend..."i am a cool person"...BULLSHIT...i introduced them and just like what happened to her best friend in the whole situation its happened to me...

but i don't stress it...i have neva been in a relationship nor do i plan on getting into 1 in the near future. Life is full of surprises and disappointments. but it is up to us to get through it.

i should be mad.i should be flabbergasted and pissed but, im not. bcuz i have always been an observer and the type that goes with the "flow"...not to mention my Deja Vu is the shit right now...i saw it coming.

i don't care if i am with someone or not in my life...AT THIS PRESENT MOMENT AND TIME...I HAVE ACCEPTED THE FACT THAT I AM GOING TO BE ALONE ALL MY LIFE...and i respect that, bcuz that is just how complicated and difficult my life and thinking is...but we will adapt to change...WE ALWAYS HAVE...

Love,

The Mind

Something kNew

Dear Heart,

I have moved on and gladly so have you.There is sum1 i knew that caught my eye.
hE is not like the others(he's str8t...hahaha jk. but seriously.he is)He is respectful.educated.and he knows exactly where he is going in life.

It is time for something new...something I haven't thought of or felt before. This is a new me.i am in control this time.just sit back and observe how it is suppose to be done.I have learned the past.watched the present.and now i am creating my future.

im just waiting for my powerpoint.EBONI!!! but i am going to be to be alright.because its SOMETHING i already kNEW...


Love,

The Mind

What Is This?

Dear Heart,

What is this? Okay.so I get him somewhat back. and then it is not the same. I don't want him like I use to. I don't have thaT urge to see him.I don't feel the same way I use to about him.

He was trying to use me and I cut him off. We got into arguments and I used my head. He could no longer control me emotionally. I didn't get mad. I just cut him off. For once we knew this was the best thing for us. I thank u for all the pain. bcuz without pain.how can u have love.

This is the beginning of me finally moving on.and the journey has only begun.like Teresa said.wen 1 door closes another 1 opens.and indeed another door has opened.I am readii to take this step forward.


Love,
The Mind