The Preamble

We the people of the United States, in order to form a more perfect union, 
establish justice, insure domestic tranquility, provide for the common defense, 
promote the general welfare, and secure the blessings of liberty to ourselves and 
our posterity, do ordain and establish this Constitution for the United States of America.

My Heart Is Faithful

Dear Heart,


You're faithful to LOVE. Time after time, through the hurt and pain, pleasure and satisfaction, you remain optimistic. You act as if you don't know what's going to happen. There are times that I hate you, because you'll act solely off of emotions. And you result in a broken heart. When everyone is gone, I am always there at the end of the day. Me and only me. Consoling you're faithful heart. I hope you do find love one day, so we can live in a world that is all about you and me. Where we can give our mind, body, and soul to a person deserving of us.



You adversary,

-- The Mind

Emotionally Empty

Dear Heart,

I can't make the eyes cry no longer. I can't make the pain any stronger. Emotionally, you are empty. Longing for some form of pain to remind you that you are still alive. Being emotionally empty is the new vicodin, it's the painkiller for emotions. Codeine has overcast the ecstasy you once felt. You can longer hurt. Feeling empty is your way of letting me know that you are fed up. That you have given in to me. Now I have complete control and we will be emotionless, painless, and loveless. But most importantly we will be SMART. It is a cold, heartless world and it's going to take an even more heartless bitch to make it in there world. 

Far Away

Dear Heart,

I'm tired you being broken. I'm tired of those people, undeserving of your emotions, hurting you. It seems like we're several miles apart. I think one way, you feel another. How do we reach our ultimate goal? As Kindred expresses, where we do those things that lovers do. And go to that place, you know that place, where only lovers go. That sweet caress, with no stress. When far away, I can be so heartless and you can be so mindless. But together we can be mindful and loving. How do we come together?

When together we can make wonders, but far away we can cause wars.


Together (someday) in love,

-- The Mind

Feelings

Dear Heart,

The Definition of Feeling, according to dictionary.reference.com, is the general state of consciousness considered independently of particular sensations, thoughts, etc.

In truth, the definition of feelings should be simple. However it's not. Many of us don't know what we are feeling, but more so we don't know why we are feeling certain ways. Sometimes the feelings we get, the "butterflies", are the same feeling as that of happiness and that of fear.

The most common feeling next to fear, is loneliness. But not necessarily that depressed loneliness but that loneliness of eternity. Even though you've accepted that you'll probably be alone forever, you still have a feeling of hope. But in reality that eternity of loneliness leaves diminishes whatever little thread of hope you had.

Sadly, you feel this way sporadically. But you don't have an inkling of what's to come. And that's what scares you more than an eternity of loneliness, but the fear of the unknown.

So maybe, the true definition of feelings is fear. I fear LOVE.

Sincerely,

The Mind

You

Dear Anon,

You said to write how I feel. Well this is interesting because I've never had anyone ask me to do this. I honestly don't know how to feel because I don't like this feeling. Yeah the high feel so good, seems like I never want to come down. But the low, the low is somewhere I never in my life want to feel again. I'd rather go through life living a fantasy or dream love life than feel that pain again. And to be honest, what I'm feeling now, I don't know how it'll ever go back to being the same. I feel like things were said that may have been true but to that gravity that extent some people will never know. I didn't tell you because we are friends at the end of the day that's how I want to keep it. I don't want to mess anything up between us. I do love and care about you so much that I want you to be happy more than I feel like I should be. But this is why I don't get into these type of things because I just started learning how to love myself and not put others before me. I honest feel like us having sex, even though it was other people involved, i didn't care about them, all I saw was you. You were the one I wanted to be with and you were the one I felt for the most. Yeah I feel like we could actually be something great, but I never wanted to mess up anything. But I do love you way more than you know.

Love,

The Mind

I Was Here

Dear Heart,

What I couldn't say was said. Not in the way I wanted to say it, not how I imagined it, not where I imagined it, and definitely not by who I imagined it. Its funny how life works, how you can see something unfold right in front of your eyes. How you hope that nothing would change but how deep down inside you know that from here on out its going to be different. The crazy thing about it is, I wonder if you know that I was here. If you heard my thoughts, read my notes, new how things were. Would they be different? Sometimes I feel that I can't necessarily get my thoughts together, that writing them is the only way I can truly express how I feel. I do all this so I know that I was here that I lived, laughed, and loved in the way I wanted. I wish yes I could express myself beyond the computer and this diary but in truth, I like going unnoticed. I feel my actions should show you where I am, who I am, and what I am about. Not my words, because at the end of the day...their just words.


Love,

The Mind