You

Dear Anon,

You said to write how I feel. Well this is interesting because I've never had anyone ask me to do this. I honestly don't know how to feel because I don't like this feeling. Yeah the high feel so good, seems like I never want to come down. But the low, the low is somewhere I never in my life want to feel again. I'd rather go through life living a fantasy or dream love life than feel that pain again. And to be honest, what I'm feeling now, I don't know how it'll ever go back to being the same. I feel like things were said that may have been true but to that gravity that extent some people will never know. I didn't tell you because we are friends at the end of the day that's how I want to keep it. I don't want to mess anything up between us. I do love and care about you so much that I want you to be happy more than I feel like I should be. But this is why I don't get into these type of things because I just started learning how to love myself and not put others before me. I honest feel like us having sex, even though it was other people involved, i didn't care about them, all I saw was you. You were the one I wanted to be with and you were the one I felt for the most. Yeah I feel like we could actually be something great, but I never wanted to mess up anything. But I do love you way more than you know.

Love,

The Mind